Picking Back Up The Proverbial Pen.

Would I rather be crying right now? YES.

Have I done that too much lately? Also YES.

Hello old friend, how’s life treating you?

Damn has a lot of stuff happened since we last spoke. My life is pretty much a shook up snow globe where not only is it snowing, but the snow is actually fire and the picturesque scene is just me, covered in sewage rocking in a ball on the floor.

I kid, its not THAT bad. I don’t think.

Excuse me if I’m a little rusty on these keys. I haven’t written anything in…since…okay its been a while. It feels good to be doing this though. Explanations are kind of tricky so I guess I’ll explain like I’m ripping off a plaster.

  1. I got depressed.
  2. I dropped out of uni.
  3. I have no idea what I’m doing. At all.
  4. I’ve got this!

Okay so I didn’t catch it or anything. What I should really say is I confronted my depression and got help. But the second two stand true. I dropped out of uni to work full time. Yes, it’s really as horrific as it sounds. The job was in the industry that I’d dreamt of being in since a child so I would have been stupid to pass it up. But working full time, away from home was too much. And so now!

I am officially back at university! Studying Creative Writing and Journalism. (The same thing I was studying before I dropped out. Thank you for letting me come back people, you rock!)

Hopefully I’ll get back to updating you guys, until next time,

Smile…It wont hurt you! πŸ™‚


**I started writing this post back in May…but it’s finally finished now!”


A “Critical” Analysis

I have happened across what I can only describe as a “critical” analysis of my ‘trade mark’ quote-

Smile…It wont hurt you

I say “critical” but really I’m quite fond of it. The comment reads as follows:

Smile, cry, scowl, it does not matter. Feel what you must feel in the darkest of nights and the brightest of days because darkness helps us appreciate the light.


I would give comprehensive credit to the author of the comment but I’m unsure whether he would like that. This blog has always been anonymous and I would like it to remain that way. Β If he reads this, He’ll know his own words. Thank you.

They mean a lot to me, not only for their origins but for their meanings too. I have no arguments against them and I believe rather than opposing my quote, they give it new depth. The comment highlights the importants of not repressing any emotion you may have. No matter the intensity, you should embrace any and all feelings you may have at all times. Never be afraid to feel. Emotions are one of the fundamental characteristics of being human. If you squash and ignore them, you are only ignoring your humanity. For a person that for a long time has tried to do the above, I know I will definitely be taking the advice on board. I plead you all (If you don’t already) do the same. For the sake of health and happiness.

But remember to still,

Smile…It wont hurt you πŸ™‚




(n)-The realisation thatΒ each random passer-by is living a life as vivid and complex as your own.

It is extreamly difficult in today’s age, when wrapped up in our own lives, to remember that every single person around you has a life much like your own. And similarly completely juxtaposed of your own. We each go through life experiencing struggles and complications. Whose to say that one persons problem is less than the next persons?

Lets think a minute about your life. How many times a day do you worry about your issues? A few? Hundreds? Thousands even, depending on your independent situation. How do your struggles make you feel? Exhausted, stressed, worried, angry, sad, the list is endless.

Now. How would you feel if I told you that everyone around you feels the same. Maybe not the exact emotions at the exact same time. But ones similar. Hey, sure there are equal amounts of people who are happy and content with life. However, allow me to introduce you to the roller-coaster that is life. It has its ups. It has its downs. It makes your heart pound and your stomach want to empty its contents. It is everything that is wonderful and equally what is horrendous. But here we are. Going through day by day on our journey of life.

If we all remember that then maybe we’d be able to shrug off the anger we feel because that woman just stole the last seat on the train. Or be able to forgive the couple in love when our life seems so empty and dismal.

We are but human after all. Faulted yes. But perfectly imperfect.

Smile…it wont hurt you πŸ™‚


Cutting my hair

In roughly an hour my hair will be gone.

Not all of it but a good majority.

Let me explain. About three years ago I discovered The Little Princess Trust.Β They are a charity who uses real hair to make wigs for children who have experienced hair loss. Be that due to chemotherapy treatment because of cancer, or alopecia. I loved the idea and wanted to help so for the past three years I’ve let my hair grow. It now falls to about my waist and I love it. I’m both excited and terrified at the same time to cut it off.Over the years I’ve become so used to having long hair that it seems so strange to think that it will soon be gone. I’m not a big fan of change and its a big challenge for me. But if we’re being honest (and I always try to be here) I don’t need it. It doesn’t promote my health, gain me money or happiness. I wont be harmed without it and I know it will potentially make a little girl or boy going through a horrendous time smile. That’s all that matters really. Honestly I only enjoy it for aesthetic reasons, my hair has become my personality but I will carry on. Its good to challenge yourself every now and then. Scary is good. (To a degree!)

I will link the website here if anyone is interested in learning more about the charity.

Remember to Smile…It wont hurt you πŸ™‚

Lets Catch up

Lent, Illness and freedom. My recent life in a nutshell. πŸ™‚

Ahh first things first. So for the first time I decided that this year I would take part in Lent. I am not in any way shape or form religious but thought the challenge and premise behind it was intriguing. What the heck right? I have decided to double-ly challenge myself by giving up not only my favourite snack (food and object in general) chocolate but fizzy drinks too. A challenge I’m finding extremely challenging indeed. (Please excuse my horrendous writing, I’m sick. But I’ll get onto that.) The desire and craving for chocolate is one that I’m familiar with from my ‘Dechox’ for charity last year. The cravings I’ve been feeling for Pepsi are intense when they strike. Most of the time I forget, its only when I go out and the usual order of a Coke is taken away from me that I feel the real disadvantage. Oasis has been my saviour in these times. I didn’t realise how much pop I drank until I could no longer drink it. It is an awful habit though, I mean you see those adverts where they show the heaps of sugar hidden in a small glass of the delicious nectar. Better for my health I guess, the same goes for the lack of chocolate.

Talking about health. I am sick. So ill. I feel awful and have done for a week now. Last week was half term so I was looking forward to a nice stress free break from college. But no, my poor excuse for an immune system let its guard down for a brief moment and allowed this plague to invade me. Now I exaggerate. In fact I only really have a cold. But I do feel so so ill. The simple act of swallowing became an Olympic event. Tornadoes swirled in my head, causing both pain and dizziness. Worst of all, my appetite disappeared making food seem utterly disinteresting. Food.Β One of my loves ripped away from me. I have been able to binge watch about three seasons of ‘The Big Bang Theory’ though so I guess its not all bad being sick.

Moving swiftly on as I have just glanced at the displayed time to realise it is getting very late and I am expected to be up and at that delightful (sarcasm) institute of education in the morning. So while in this zombie-ill state last Friday by some miracleΒ Β I managed to pass my practical driving test and am now a legal driver! πŸ™‚ Happy times or what. I shall be hitting the roads as soon as I find a job that pays well/ win the lottery/ suddenly come into a large fortune, due to insurance for my tiny blue car is that you would expect for a NASA rocket.

Time for sleep for me. πŸ™‚

Smile…It wont hurt you.:)


Woah, two posts in two days! What is this!?!? πŸ˜‰

Haha but this is something that I’ve been meaning to write for a while now. πŸ™‚

Recently (well last year I think) I hit 50 followers! To be honest that doesn’t really sound like a lot but to me that’s bloody flipping amazing :’)

When I started this blog I didn’t think one person would read it let alone 50! So I would just like to say THANK YOU! To everyone that has been crazy enough to click a little button that says that you want to read more of what I write πŸ™‚ I think now were at like 52 or something crazy like that and I really couldn’t have done this without all of your support.

Things have been rough but this blog has meant that I’ve had somewhere to go if I needed to get it out πŸ™‚ so in response to this I would like to offer you all the chance to have someone to talk to.

I’ve recently gotten this new app called “Frankly chat” you may have heard of it but its great! Just another one of those free messaging apps really but if you, and I mean any of you have anything happening and you need someone to talk to I want you to know that I’m always here no matter what πŸ™‚

I you want to add me on Frankly my pin is: iij342

If you would like to get the app then click here!

Once again thankyou for all of your support πŸ™‚

Smile…it won’t hurt you!